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	Definition:		\Av`a*tar"\, n. [Skr. avat[^a]ra descent; ava from + root t[.r] to cross, pass over.] 1. (Hindoo Myth.) The descent of a deity to earth, and his incarnation as a man or an animal; -- chiefly associated with the incarnations of Vishnu. 2. Incarnation; manifestation as an object of worship or admiration.

	Definition:		1. An image representing a user in a multi-user virtual reality (or VR-like, in the case of palace) space. 2. (CMU, Tektronix) root, superuser. There are quite a few unix computers on which the name of the superuser account is "avatar" rather than "root". This quirk was originated by a cmu hacker who disliked the term "superuser", and was propagated through an ex-CMU hacker at tektronix.

J.Kitty lays sprawled on her bed, spending a lonely evening with her laptop. J.Kitty is lost. She doesn't know where to begin. As her imeem playlist croons "Upside Down" by 6 cycle mind in the background, she sighs as she stares at the empty blog page in front of her. It is very intimidating, all that white space. It makes her writing more noticeable, and she feels more pressured to create nothing less than perfect. All that white space. And those letters such a stark contrast. It better be darned perfect, whatever she decides to say..

For at this point, J.Kitty yearns for nothing more than to become a Sci Fi Writer.
But to be a good one, it requires convincing characters people, a twisted plot, a spellbinding make believe universe filled with captivating possibilities.

With nothing else to go by for now, J.Kitty fashions her character based on herself and her own flaws and nuances.

She finds this comforting. Because J.Kitty has so many other things she should be doing, such as applying for jobs, cleaning her room, organizing her office, editing a wedding video, keeping track of her expenses and receipts for next year's tax refund, helping her dad find their naturalization papers to apply for the passports, brushing her teeth, lending an ear to some troubled friends...

but instead, she lays sprawled on her bed, staring at the blank page in front of her, but now filling it with words as she breathes life into her new character/heroine, based on herself and her current experiences.

The difference between the real J.Kitty and her avatar, is that the avatar or character will definitely be travelling to other universes of thought, and will experience all the adventures, pleasures, mysteries and surrealness that J.Kitty only wishes she could.

Now that she has organized her thoughts and laid a foundation, J.Kitty is no longer intimidated by the blank page. Because now it is filled with words.

JANE KATHLEEN'S – ENFP Personality Type

ENFP

(Comparable Anime characters of similar personality type: Chibi Chibi from Sailor Moon, Chisato from Vampire Princess Miyu, Kaichou from CLAMP School, Miaka from Fushigi Yuugi, Usagi from Sailor Moon, Sana from Kodomo no Omocha, Sakura from Card Captor Sakura)

Jane Kat is a curious, enthusiastic, friendly, energetic and fun-loving girl who seeks meaning in what she does.

She is unconventional, irrelevant and is seldom impressed by authority and rules. She believes nothing is impossible and enjoys dealing with possibilities and ideas. She doesn’t like to focus her attention on any one thing, like schoolwork or chores. Jane Kat usually has many friends and keeps most of her friends for life. She is perceptive, insightful and empathetic.

Jane Kat can usually sense other's hidden motives, and can also convince people to do anything for her. Jane Kat is a procrastinator who has difficulty making most decisions and dislikes working alone. Any decision Jane Kat is able to make will most likely be based on her strong personal values. She is warm, caring concerned people, but also is very sensitive and takes things personally.

Jane Kat is deeply committed to her friends and will sacrifice her own needs for them. She is usually very cheerful, but withdrawn when hurt or overwhelmed. Jane Kat loves being around people, and will talk to and feel sympathy for most everyone. In her speech, Jane Kat uses many metaphors and humor and speaks very quickly. She swears more than most of the other types and uses many colorful, if irrelevant stories to emphasize her points. She is very eloquent and can convince anyone of anything. She also knows just what words to use to motivate different people. Jane Kat ask many questions, especially when she first meets a person. In dress, she usually has an original, arty style and dress only to please herself.

She is very sensitive and sentimental, with unique insights which she generally only shares with a few close friends. Jane Kat’s ENFP Personality Type is the most optimistic of all the types, and can see people's potential for caring and works to bring it out. She has great faith in her abilities to identify with people, and is often asked to help solve other's problems. This can be hard on Jane Kat because her emotional state is often dependent on those of others around her. She is very generous with her time and advice and is willing to help anyone who asks. Jane Kat tends to be a little naive, thinking that people should do things because she is right.

10.31.2007 Enough already

I was inspired by someone who underwent a 12 week body transformation and recorded each day in his blog. I have been struggling with my weight since I was 9, and would yo yo year after year. On Oct 28, when I stepped on a scale, I weighed 205 pounds. (I am 5'1" tall) That is the MOST I have ever weighed in my life. I am 29 years old right now and I know my metabolism is already sliding down a downward slope.

I took some photos of myself in my underwear (not yet ready to post in public, heh heh) Good grief, I looked disgusting! All this flab and cellulite. I will take a pic of myself every week until I can feel good about how I look.

So in an effort to make myself more accountable, I will publish my eating and exercise log online. I'm don't want to look like a failure.

12:00 Yesterday, my first meal of the day was chinese noodles, chow fun and some beef brocolli at HEB Chinese Kitchen.

2:10 I had about 1.5 cups of spaghetti with meatballs at my desk so I ate that.

2:45 I had a cup of coffee with 2 Hazelnut creamers

3:00-5:00 I had about 2 bottles of water each .5L

6:00 I ate a chocolate chip cookie, 2 slices of cream cheese pineapple pie with pecans and a half slice of tres leches birthday cake

9:30-10:00 I did 10 mins of cardio elliptical, 75 reps of out hip abductors, 75 rips of in hip abductors, 60 reps of the squat machine
10:00-10:20 I swam about 4 laps
10:20-10:30 I sat in the spa and also in the steam room

11:00 went shopping
12:15am ate a late late dinner consisting of 1.5c of pasta, 2.5 servings of lemon dill yellowfin tuna (so yummy) an orange and a mini snickers bar and a bottle of .5L water

It was a very satisfying dinner, albeit quite late. But the Starkist "lemon dill, yellow fin tuna in olive oil" was soooooo delicious! It reminded me of Hawaii so badly (ahi poke in particular, cuz that's what ahi poke is, yellow fin tuna) I can't believe how the texture and taste of the fish could just flood me with such nostalgic memories of hawaii. It brought back memories of the fishmarkets, Poke Stop in Waipahu, Daiei, Ahi Danburi or Ahi salads on Fort Street in Downtown Honolulu, home made Tahitian poisson cru made by students in my French class at University of Hawaii, Manoa and all the people and activities associated with those places.

Its amazing how the taste of this fish transported me to another time and place. Its kinda pricier than other tuna cans, appx $1.39/can. But i think I'll get more.

I felt so good after the workout. The strength training, the detox from the steam room, the relaxation from the pool and spa. That when i woke up this morning, those good feelings stayed with me and I feel so centered. My body feels good. Nothing is aching. Its not like I expected to see results right away, but the good feelings it gave me, makes me motivated to go work out again. My skin even looks a little radiant (although i still have some acne scars here and there)

Today i brought my lunch. I have 2 small apples, an orange, a package of Saltine crackers and a can of smoked sardines in oil. I will try to work out again tonight. It helps that my long distance boyfriend in Saudi has a problem with his internet connection. So for now, instead of staying up late to try to chat, I can go work out tonight.

My biggest problem is dinner and eating late at night.



OCT 31st - Halloween

8:45am - for breakfast I ate about 8 Saltine Crackers, and a cup of peppermint/green tea


11:45 - for lunch I had a can of smoked sardines in soybean oil, appx 8 crackers, a small apple and a small orange. I also had a .5L bottle of water

Feeling: satisfied and light, cravings for sweets not so strong.


12:50 - since Halloween is an evil holiday, I ate some pretty evil things from a Halloween potluck. Even though I had just gotten back from lunch, someone announced there were leftovers from another department's potluck.

So I helped myself to 2-3 Tbsps of macaroni and cheese, 3 pieces of breaded/fried okra from Church's and 3 little smokies sausages. And.. a small fun size pack of M&M's. Chased everything down with some water.

I hate myself now. *sniff, sniff. I feel a little stuffed and slightly bloated.

Then around 2pm my co-worker said, Hey let's get some more food from the Halloween potluck. Since I was already being bad, how much worse could I get..... Tons worse.

2:00 I ate 1/3 cup baked beans, 1/2 cup 7 layer taco salad (the kind with avacado, refried beans, cheese and sour cream) about 10 chips, 2 cookies, a really thick 1/2 scone, 4 more Lil Smokies sausages. It was very, very, very evil.

3:00 I grabbed a mini Hershey's bar from my co-workers candy stash on her desk

More water in between

6:45 At home, dinner, my dad cooked adobo (the really greasy kind) with pork and lots of onions, it was super tangy and salty. I only wanted a little, so I got a tiny saucer with some rice. Mmmmm.. it was yummy! so I got a 2nd serving. And a 3rd. And a 4th. by the time I got to half of a 5th, I was feeling uber full and bloated and fat.

After church that night, I was supposed to go exercise. I ended up putting on my exercise clothes, but instead of lifting weights, I was lifting my fat self onto my bed with my laptop and logging on to Friendster or Yahoo to check for any new messages. In the middle of uploading some "skinny" photos of myself, I fell asleep and didn't wake up till almost 8am. Heheheh Pathetic!

The good part about this day was

#1. I distributed my meals thru out the day

#2. I didnt eat past 6 or 7pm.

#3. At least I got about 6-7 hours of sleep (which is rare)


The bad part is - i forgot to bring my lunch the next day (due to oversleeping)